my kawan, my friends.

[Nov 22, Sunday] and here we are again. Seasport! Picnic! that was my second picnic with the girls. I seriously thought I couldn't make it. but I guess God loves us so much and they made us meet up. haha. unfortunately, I had to leave early. but I did had a short good time with them.

people say pictures worth a thousand words, so here are some of the photos taken from Jun's cam. there are more, but you can view them in facebook. or I'll upload later in Flckr.

nice right? the clouds.

what is this, a war or something?

lawn bowling green.

stick man. haha, like this one. i just came and they were doing this.

too bad, forgot to bring mat...

it's really unhealthy eating with them. with all those laughters and chokings... XD

no wonder they got sunburn..

i like this one.. blurry.

I LOVE MY FRIENDS!
Haha, you never know how much we've been through. In the end, we still stick together and our stories will be a magnificent fairy tale for our children.
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now, this is why I created a blog for.

oh MY!

Hi! Hi! Hi!!!

I AM SO EXCITED TODAY!

lol, not that something BIG happened. it's just that, i feel happy all of a sudden! LOL.

i seriously am falling in ♥ with sundresses. Currently i have two. One bought in Melaka, and the other one in Kelantan. I wore the one i bought in Kelantan the day i came back Labuan, and I'm wearing the one from Melaka now. lol, went to church bah. and the more I see myself in sundresses, the more I'm obsess and in love with it!!

OH MY!!
*drools*

so people, please please please, send me some sundresses as my christmas gift this year; or better yet, as my BIRTHDAY GIFT!!!!!! turning 19 this DEC 29!!! so late huh? hahaha, i just love year-end birthday!

btw, i wanna share this video. so cute!!! it's from the movie Juno.. saw it in friend's facebook profile. hahaha.

All I Want Is You - Barry Louis Polisar

or you can see another one. the same song, just different video.




and this one here, goes to Fay. hey fay, LOOK!! THAT MONSTER!! saw it randomly while browsing through online blogshops. LOL!! what's it called? can i call it fayYEYO???? hahahaha.


ohhh ohhh, one more thing, well actually i said it on facebook. but i wanna jot it down again, here in my bloggie. weee.

well, I ACCIDENTALLY brought back church's hymn book. sorry, i'll return it next week! and ohh, i keep holding myself from laughing when seeing the Labuan parishioners. haha, i just miss seeing those faces. rindu muka labuan. HAHAHA. and after church, i talked to my Matrix lecturer, Ms. Colina. boy she's sure is sweet! and then in the middle of that, mom introduced me to her friend, all of a sudden.. LOL. and i went like, Hi, and shook her hand. and it's kinda uhmm awkward cuz mom didnt introduce her name or who she is. and i just had to smile. i wanted to ask, but then, i was talking to my lecturer.. so, uhm, didnt get the chance to ask. haha, but i did ask mom later after that. She's working in the ICT unit in Jabatan Kesihatan. oh well, God hook me up with ICT people? why? is there anything going on? i'm going to learn more about ICT? oh my. well i do love ICT, in fact, i took ICT subject when i was in Form 4, but dropped it when I switched to science class. LOL. yea, im fond of technologies as well. but i need to take things slow. i'm already learning a lot of stuffs right now, and to take on another? whoah, wait a minute, i need to suck up on oxygen! lols!

okay okay I think that's enough. owhhh one more! anyone please, im addicted to facebook games. please please please, tell me how to stop!!!! hahaha i think i'll quit one by one.. starting with Café World, and then Rock Riot... and then Yakuza Lords or Mafia Wars?? Yakuza Lords and Mafia Wars are kinda hard for me to stop, cuz it's like a mission need to be accomplished. and i dont like unaccomplished mission. huhuhu...

alright thats about it. now, tootles!!!

weather report; it's now raining, in Labuan.

Upper First

Upper First

just thoughts.

People Human, when comes to the downs of life, will first blame on others. correct?

why? lack of emotional stability? or maybe that's the way human being has always been?

and when they blame, it's not just plain blame. it's a hell of blame, along with the intense rage one has to that one person or more. one's mind is so intoxicated by the unduly pessimistic thoughts, felt like life's being unfair and that it's a torture. and to forget, is no easy job.

feeling like it's the end of the world? asking why one is always in this situation? what has one done to deserve this?

CRAPS!!!!!!!!

all those who are in the situation i mentioned above, please, WAKE UP!!!!!!

why can't y'all live with this simple quote, "things happen for a reason". and do me a favour, read the Bible, or any other religious book according to your respective religion. I've done it, and believe me, it helps. A LOT!

yes, things may never go your way. But there's always reasons behind that. You just need to piece yourself up and find those reasons! We do not belong to this world. We belong to the One up above who created us. and when ure dealing with obstacles, and u find that the burden is too heavy on you, look up to the Father. ask for His guidance, rather than dwelling on the worldly worries and putting blame on others. delete the word blame from your dictionary, NOW!

now i know, it may seem hard to just ignore the sufferings u're feeling, but trust me, if u truly want a divine end to ur problems, u really need to look up on God. another way is to think optimistically. i strongly suggest you to read this book, "The Power of Your Subconscious Mind" by Dr Joseph Murphy.

here are some :

Your subconscious mind is principle. It works according to the law of belief. You must know what belief is, why it works, and how it works. Your Bible says in a simple, clear, and beautiful way:

"Whosoever shall say unto this mountain, Be thou removed, and be thou cast into the sea; and shall not doubt in his heart, but shall believe that those things which he saith shall come to pass; he shall have whatsoever he saith."

MARK 11:29

The law of your mind is the law of belief. This means to believe in the way your mind works, to believe in belief itself. The belief of your mind is the thought of your mind, just that and nothing else.

All your experiences, events,conditions, and acts are produced by your subconscious mind in reaction to your thoughts. Remember, it is not the thing believed in, but the belief in your own mind that brings about the result. Stop accepting the false beliefs, opinions, superstitions, and fears that plague our humankind. Begin to believe in the eternal verities and truths of life that never change. At that point you will move onward, upward, and Godward.

Now that was pretty much it huh.

The whole point im blogging this for is to make everyone clear that, i have my own way of dealing things. and i know what's good for me. Don't make judgment bout me if you don't know who i really am. tho i do appreciate your comments. I'll analyse on that and i'll correct myself accordingly if that is good for me. Just one thing, i know what i'm doing. and i'm proud of who i am. i don't need to pretend because i know who i am. i have well defined my future and i know what i want and what i don't.

this is another sharing i'd like to share. i said this to a friend of mine about 2 or 3 months ago.

My philosophy is that, "life is life. every moment has its very own feeling of the moment which we must feel cuz thats what makes us alive in this world. the world is abundant. why hold on to only one thing? why hold on to only sad thought? wandering. experience. wander to experience and feed ur mind, body and soul with fresh new aroma. if things dont work out after you've put ur full effort in workiing things out, then maybe it's time to let go. but dont despair for this indicates a better transformation for u. there are more to life that u ever thought. be BRAVE to feel all the feelings. after all, feelings are our souls'food; feed them as how u'd feed ur cravings during PMS or IMS. Life is like a series of metamorphosis. u find a better u everytime u go through the 'stages of life'. The most important thing is to put urself at the top priority. u deserve happiness and nothing is gonna stop u from pursuing it".

Even though at times i'd get a big hit, such as, knowing that i got a course which i do not choose in a university that i never thought i would go. Yup, UMK. Universiti Malaysia Kelantan. and yeap, it's in Kelantan. Pengkalan Chepa to be exact. only 5 minutes away from airport. and my room has the most beautiful view of all. u get the most soothing wind if u were in my room. and you can hear sounds of cows moo-ing... LOL.

see, it may seem worst the first time. and yea i know, i made a lot of judgment bout my course and UMK. but that was before i went there! just a few days im in UMK, i've already started liking it. and i'm loving it now! there goes... life's a mystery. take time to explore. do not judge before you have ever know something or someone.

earlier this morning, i had a chat with my coursemate. never thought i'd be close with her. haha. and she shares this one quote to me,

Never take a person for granted. Hold every person close to your heart cause you might wake up one day and realise that you've lost a diamond while you were too busy collecting stones.

haha, love it!


i'm posting this post not because im feeling emo or something. i just want to share what i feel. and no doubt, yes, something happened. that is why i posted this. but it is all okay now. i don't need to clarify to people who doesn't open wide their eyes on life view, and on what has happened. the past is the past and dwelling onto the past is just, SO NOT ME! i'm open, and i look forward for more in life to come. just like a senior of mine said in his introductory, "i'm emotionally strong. so it's difficult to make me cry or acting aggressively" .. something like that. sorry Alex, i steal borrow your line. hahah. anf fyi, i love reading people's introductory. especially a good one. even though some of it might be parts of song lyrics, but hey, that is what we call creative and we appreciate other's work! hahaha. and i can pretty much remember introductories that caught my interest!


alright, so much for the sharing. till then! tootles!

OMG!!!

OMG!!!
I CANT BELIEVE THIS!! IM GOING TO HAVE A COMPANY!!!!! LOVE U ALL PARTNERS!!!!!!

No wonder i cant sleep tonight.. uhm, well, i did slept.. 7-11pm... lol.. new lifestyle in UMK vs old lifestyle in Labuan.... hmm.. need adaptation.. normally in Kelantan, i'll sleep in the evening... lol!

okay theres two things that made me go GA-GA actually. the first one would be a secret and the second one, yup, like the big HEADING up there! COMPANY!!!! and here goes the worms.... im gonna be dealing with worms... NOOOO!!!!! I AM SO SO SO PHOBIC TO WORMS!!! but none the less, im gonna try to overcome it, just like how i overcome my maggi phobia.. LOL!

anyways, i made spaghetti yesterday. my very first time. and it was yummie! but i think i still need to improve... a little... err no.. more!


alright.. thats it. tootles!


p.s. my hamster is so active tonight. my entertainment while online... her curious face, oh dear! just love it! hahaha.

new plans!

Hi Hi!

a short update!

new plans for my hols!

READING!

the Bible (u really can find a lot of solutions in life here.) ; Natural Wonders of Asia ; Amazing Secrets of Nature

apart from that, i'll be doing some tutorials on photography as well.

so, blog updates? we'll see.

anyway, thanks for reading! tootles!

home.

Hi. sorry for the silence. didnt really feel like blogging lately, even after finals over. haha. why? cuz there're other things to do.. LOL. and i kinda got tired.

anyway, im back in Labuan! yes, the land i call home. a home which defines me. a chocolate lover! and i just realised what a privilege to have been raised in labuan!

alright, that's it.

wishing my SBN seniors and fellow vetties, and all others who are sitting for biometry test tomorrow! and have a full blast during the hols!

tootles! and take care. God bless.

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a fake smile.

well what can i say about today?
i'm feeling kinda sad. not because of the exam. it's cuz...... i just hate it! hate myself for being so unaware and unfocused on the tiniest section about this certain subject which ive been reading for like ages, i just go like, oh okay its this and that, i didnt even, i mean, how come i can be so careless? and so unfocused? what happened? this has never happen, never, never never! why now? im trying to dig up reasons for this but it seems like its a never ending black hole. pffftt.

putting on a fake smile each time greeting friends when im not in the mood is one thing that help disguise the immense emotions i'm feeling but once it reached its boiling point then i'll drop dead. im gonna be so vulnerable and so depressed, and i'll be at the verge of breaking down. and if i really do cry, it really means i've been keeping the burden for a very long time, without sharing it out. i never really like sharing my inner conflicts until i resolve it. i'd prefer listening to people and extract some of the things i listened to overcome my own problems. i'm not the type that is too dependent on people. i like doing things myself cuz its challenging. giving advice is not really a thing im good at. when someone shares their problems with me, i'll give some philisophical wordings from my viewpoint and experiences, instead of advices.

wow im feeling a little better now. gotta prep up now. tootles!

when boredom strikes.

good afternoon. just for a brief update, and boredom-releasing. (haha)

i sent my lappy for the finishing touch yesterday. the other day was just about 70% completed. lol. and right now im using pam's lappy while she's having her battle at the battlefield (exam hall).

a night without laptop, and my new downloaded songs, was okay, i managed to go through. lol. talking bout songs makes me realise something. that mp3 i won during the mooncake festival. lol. its still lying peacefully in that box. i havent used it yet. probably cuz i dont need it? lol, im thinking of giving it to other people who kinda need it. lol, or maybe i could make it as a christmas exchange present gift? not sure. haha.

i'm thinking of working (apart from SIEP). but who would want to employ someone whos just gonna work for a month or less? lol, and im still not done in searching for places to do my SIEP. labuan? or kk(kota kinabalu)? nah, nvm, think about it after the exams over.

okay guys, got to go! prep up prep up!

good luck, take care and God bless.